she is..?

saturday, i'll going to perform, first time beatbox performance on stage, adding some breakdance, it's a very very difficult thing. since i was injured during the practice. ok never mind that's not really a serious thing. so i am going to do my best but not try my best only. beatbox, is a thing that you can do it with your tongue, lips, teeth, throat and nose. combine the sounds together that looks like some beat. it's a very funny thing, actually this is not a performance, it's just a simple tutorial for audience, the committee said i have to communicate with them, so i change it to the beatbox tutorial and not only a performance.

it's just some bullshit above, actually i am tired now, for the performance, for the club and activities, and for my studies. her blog, i always go and check whether got new update or not, i got it, there is a new post. it's a very simple thing that she is talknig about, but, i really want to know who she is talking about actually. i am affair to ask her, she is unhappy, i know. something happened inside her heart. i wish i can understand what she is thinking now, really. and my every performance, i wish to let her come to see, but she never comes to have a look. maybe, she's a very busy body, i don't know. this saturday, the next performance that will be done by myself, i'll going to solo on the stage, how? i never solo to perform.

something is inside her heart
and something is inside my heart
i can do nothing
because everything that i do is nothing
how to understand
how to get up again
you
how are you
do not ask to me
because i am not
i'm getting crazy
for the thing that i want
for the thing that i do
sometimes
i am happy
it's fake
because i am unhappy all the time
my hope
is a very simple thing that can happen to everyone
except the current me
wish you happy
all the time

- peter pan

2009/06/13 0302 i have to go, take care. miss your voice.m